What am I thinking??

Let my start by saying I'm an intelligent, relatively attractive female. BUT when it comes to this guy I'm dating I'm a complete moron.



Tell me, who in thier right mind would sit around and wait for a guy who obviously has issues to call/email/text her? Why do we do this? Am I so desparate for this man to like me that I'm at his beck and call?? It makes absolutely no sense to me at all. My friends tell me he's toxic and I should run as fast as I can, while I make excuses for his behavior. Either to justify it to myself or them or whatever.



I mean, does anyone know a normal 39 year old man who doesn't want to touch the woman he's with when he only see's her a couple time a week?? What is that all about? I'm not the most affectionate person in the world myslef but come on already.



And why is that he went from being sweet and considerate to not so nice in a matter of days? Is it some male form of PMS that I'm not aware of?? This is exhausting! I go from a guy bringing me flowers for absolutely no reason at all to NOTHING. Literally nothing.. unless I email/call/ text first there's nothing. I KNOW he would completely cut me off if he didn't have feelings for me. But he is seriuosly pushing me away. Pushing like I've never experienced a guy pushing before. I've never even heard of a guy acting like this before.